..::sometimes::..

Hey :)

..tonight..I'm kind of emotional a bit..

You know..as I'm getting old and older
I tend to think quite a lot
what is right for me..
consequences of my every action..
When anything bad happen..you felt like you want to blame the whole world for it right?
If you didn't.. I did.

I grew up learning life is not some kind of tales nor some kind of drama we watch everyday
It's reality
Life is a reality
Where I'm responsible for my own life; not you nor other people
It's just..me.

And.. in this complicated little world.. all I want is just to live my life well
But as time passed by.. things didn't go the way I want it to
I'm watching a betrayal
But.. I can't say anything about it
Coward.Yes I am.
It's not that I'm afraid it will hurt other people
But
I'm afraid it will hurt me.
I like to play safe

Playing safe doesn't save me at all..actually.
It disturbs me more.
Sometimes..I wish that I'm much better than that
But..what can I do?
It just me..

So.. to you guys..
If you want to start lying..
because your fear of getting hurt
DOn'T.
If you afraid to get hurt
remember
the person you lied to..hurts more.

Same goes with love
If you love someone
say it.
The love may come ; and might leave also
but at least..
You regret less.

"Do something that you might regret than regretting not doing it at all"

If you've done something wrong
then get back on track
and say you're sorry
so that you can forgive and forgets..
don't live blaming yourself
till the end.

If you're angry
then scream it out
so you can let it go
and move on with a big smile on your face

If you are gritting your teeth and holding your tears
then burst it out
so that you can wash away
the sadness you feel and move on with a better view on life.

" There's always sunshine behind the rain "

Jump like you can touch the skies
and live your life the fullest

Because as I said earlier ;

we are the one responsible for our own lives.